April 10th 2010

Everyone has there own way of having fun, usually in high school it usually has something with partying , drinking, experimenting with substances and the such. I realize I surround myself with friends that don't do the such, nor do we sit in my bathroom changing outfits taking pictures in the mirror for hours, I'm sorry I'd rather do better things with my time. I have realized that a lot of the time it usually has to do something with cooking / baking . I thoroughly enjoy these activities. Cooking is mildly entertaining to me. So Maddie came over yesterday with the intention of our used to be tradition - bubble tea Wednesday - make up day. Unfortunately we are pussies, and the weather was cold. Instead we did something every one does - right? everyone pulls out the china and fancy silverware and has a tea party.. yeah, I know. I`d rather spend my time doing something different, entertaining even if it inst the norm, or whatever is the ``popular`` choice to make. I`m going to make my own memories. Speaking of which we then returned to Maddie`s house where we looked at all the old pictures and videos of us she had on her computer, it makes me realize the past wasn`t as bad as I thought it was when I was living in it. I`m determined to make these next few years even better. If you look close enough , you can see my mother creeping in the background.

Speaking of my mother, today we decided, or rather she decided, to go on adventure, we ended up in some neighborhood where I have decided I want to live in. There were some old tiny houses , and I LOVED it. I want one, if decided that would be the coolest place to live in. Lately Ive been thinking lately of how much I want the freedom to live on my own, everything is my choice, my way, and I can finally live the way I want to. I`m at least going to try to put up with the situation I`m in until I am eighteen, I`m doing it for my mother.