May 29th 2010

Time, I would have to think that is everyone's war. Trying to beat it, but in the end, you can't change it, make more of it, have less of it, It is not something you can influence. Not enough time to finish what you need to. Not enough to be young, to be a kid. The time with a lover that you wish would last forever ends so abruptly. We all want wish something would never end, that we could live in that forever, that it wasn't long enough, that why couldn't it just stay. Forever comes to an end, it's a fact, because we are not forever, we come to an end as well, so that is the end of our forever. Time will in fact forget us, forget our unfulfilled dreams, aspirations, how we tried so hard holding on to "the good days" no matter how hard it hurt others when we do such. Time will forget those empty promises, those things you never got around to, the friendships that you never had time for, the love whom you "wasted" so much time on. The wrong girl you spent all your time chasing only to realize that it isn't what you wanted. Time is I suppose, unforgiving, you can't go back and change it, you can't manipulated, you don't get second chances. You also cant imagine that what you are doing in this moment, you'll regret in the future, or wish you had done something different, or something better. In the moment, is it even possible to think about that? To think that the choices, the thoughts you are making will be something someday that repulse you. Time, a magnificent curse to which will one day bring the down fall of everyone, it isn't something you can get away from.
Anyways, I was just in a ranting kind of mood. So yesterday was Jorelle's Graduation banquette, that boy is lucky. Got ready, went over to his house, and damn my man friend is hawwt :D . //Side tracked thoughts. I thought it was a very lovely night and it was kind of cool to see all these people dressed up fancy, some much more fancy than others, but still. We sat with this other family, and it was a wierd dynamic, a father, a step mother, a date, the graduate, the mother and the step sister. They were all rather lovely people, to us, but throughout the night I thought they were quite.. hostile? to the birth mother, all in all though they were great sitting buddies. After grad, Jorelle had no plans, so we went to denny's I know, eating after supper. BUT we ate baskets of puppies, so it was all okay. All in all I was very glad that I could share this night with him, I really enjoyed it. Now he's going to have to wait and come to mine.

Before We left, at Jorelle's house :3 Cream and coffee ? = P We, we are bad ass, thank you very much. I think this is one of my new favorite pictures.
We all squished into this one booth, there were even some more who weren't in this picture.
My Mother thinks Jorelle and I are models. = P