Self confidence, most people go have issues with it, don't lie. Whose fault is that? Blame media, blame whatever your circumstance may be, it's still a terrible problem. I know I'm not fat, I know I'm not ugly, sometimes I even think I can be kinda cute, now and then :3 But it's still a sensitive issue. It takes just a little prick to set it off sometimes, and it hurts, fears and doubt in myself returns, I'm not as pretty as her, her stomach isn't as big as mine, how come I can never look like that, no matter how hard I try. Honestly, I wouldn't trade who I am for anything, I wouldn't be me then would I, but everyone has things they don't like about themselves, it's something I need to deal with, get comfortable with it, learn to love it, make it better.
On another note, while staring out my window, I had one of my random thoughts, this time though, the thought was simply two words. Soul mates. That's a subject I have thought about greatly, I do think there are people out there who share a piece of you. No, not just one, but there is multiple people out there , people who you instantly connect with you, someone who greatly impacts your life, serves a purpose. Maybe to change your opinion on something, help open your eyes, be you're crutch, own a part of your soul that you never knew existed. Some stay once you've found them, some come until the time has run its course, then you never see them again. That doesn't mean they were not your soul mate, it just a different type of relationship that's needed at times. They open up a part of you that you never knew you had, never would have experienced without them. Sure there are also influential people on your life, that aren't necessarily soul mates, but impact your life, change your view, you see not everyone can own a part of your soul.
I think I can say I have luckily met three of these soul mates to date. No, I'm not going to state them, not all things need to be said. One whom crutched to me, opened my eyes what friendship is and what it is not. That sometimes you need to do things for yourself, sometimes you need to take a step back from the situation, a great shift in my view point on a lot of things this one has caused me, much to their lacking knowledge of the situation. Another whom I can say showed me what love is, though not necessarily always there, was definitely there when I needed it. Showed me I am worth fighting for, that someone cared for me, love. Shows me that love isn't always a romantic thing, and doesn't need to die. Just because we've grown apart, I still feel rather close to this person. And another person, whom makes me feel like I'm just truly myself. Some one, who even though it's extremely hard, drags the words out of me, makes me open up when its so hard, never done it and hurts, but in the end is worth it. The relationship of thoughts and trust much deeper than ever before faced. Someone who shows me its okay to walk on the dangerous side because they're there to keep me safe. Always there, even if the danger is in my mind. Allready Ive noticed a coming of an end to one of these, another one that will always be close to my mind, another that will always be close to my heart. All whom I will never forget, and I know even when they are not there, they will still cross my mind.
I had a little bit of extra time this morning okay.
"till there's nothing left of her, let's watch the city burn the world."
Hollywood Undead - city. I'm a lyric person. That's what makes a song to me.
Plus, I love it when a song perfectly fits someone's voice.
I kind of remind myself of a puppy in this picture. I don't know why.
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